Dear all, it again has been far too long. My punctuation isn’t exactly great but it has been a very busy time. I seem to be working 7 days a week, non stop. I can’t remember the last time I had a day off, and not to mention the pressures of a demanding social life, I feel physically, spiritually, emotionally and mentally drained.
Still, it seems my dark side needs exploring, but since giving up weed my head is a lot clearer, but now I’m getting lots of emotional content coming through. I wonder, through a year of repression technique just what I’m letting myself in for.
It seems the vibe is hanging over my head. How can I distrust and accuse my girlfriend, but how can I remain normal when her language is sexualised around him, and then you find out she’s going out on the town to ‘reintroduce’ his penis to the female world. One would think it was almost worship. I wonder if I should just let it slide, but its eating my up. Haunting. It’s no wonder people go crazy, you’ve got all this shit going on but your never allowed to express it, because if you do its just paranoid.
Anyway, the challenge is to let go, and hope and wish for the best, and hope and wish the best. Will write again when in a more writey mood.
Peace
